Over the past 3+ weeks my life has been turned upside down. I went from thinking I had a healthy pregnancy, to learning that I had a beautiful baby girl inside that was not compatible with life due to several complications. It’s the worse news any parent could ever receive. I went into preterm labor 2 weeks ago (I was already extremely high risk at this point), and my Dr. made it clear to us that I needed to be in the hospital immediately.
My precious Kapri Lenea was born April 25th right into the arms of Jesus. She was beautifully small, and had all her fingers and toes. Her little mouth was opened to see her cute little tongue and gums. We marveled over her beauty, and ached over our loss.
I don’t look for sympathy, quite the contrary actually. As a Christian I know where my faith stands. I know that my beautiful baby girl has been made whole. She will never have to suffer on this earth, go through extensive amount of surgeries, like we thought might happen, or have to understand what hurt and pain is.
My husband painted a beautiful picture at her graveside service that she must be dancing in heaven, parading around on the streets of gold with her brother or sister that we lost a year and a half ago. Our oldest daughter LOVES to dance, and asked during one of the songs played if she could get up and dance for everyone, simply precious.
We grieve, but we will heal. I am not in the least bit mad at God. I gained another beautiful daughter that I get to spend eternity with, and I have already grown so much closer to the Lord. We don’t have to understand why things like this happen, we just have to trust that our God is big enough to hold us tightly and believe that His purpose is far greater than ours, no matter how much it hurts.
Thank you for letting me share a little glimpse into my life. I know this has nothing to do with coupons or living frugal, but I thought it was important to share to allow my readers an understanding as to why I was away. I LOVE authoring Save At Home Mommy, and I will continue to share how my family saves money. It’s a true passion of mine, and I hope it becomes your passion too.
This song was played at my daughter’s service, it’s simply beautiful. Job 1:21 And he said, “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked shall I return. The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.”