Just about every week I receive emails asking me to do book reviews on books that are about to be released, but I simply don’t have the time to do them. Being a stay-at-home-mommy and authoring the website keeps me busy enough, however, when you find a book that you can relate to, then that’s a whole different story. Today I will be opening up to you way more than I ever thought possible. It’s a hidden secret that a lot of women carry, and it’s nice to know we are not alone. It’s different being the woman in the situation because there is something there that men cannot understand. It’s lonely and it’s time to open up.

On October 19th I saw that beautiful pink line, and I knew I was pregnant with my second child. My husband and I were ecstatic! We would lay in bed and talk about names, I had dreams of rocking this baby, showing my 2 year old daughter how to be a big sister. I made a shirt that said Big Sis on the front and we took pictures to go on the front of our Christmas cards announcing the big news.  We were all so excited! Well, November 6th rolled around and I noticed I wasn’t feeling well. The next day I went to the Dr. and he did an ultrasound. I got to see my baby! I was scared, but so excited at the same time. After doing some blood work he sent me home to rest. But it didn’t matter because November 8th, the day before my daughter’s 2nd birthday, I had a miscarriage. I was home, actually working on the grocery ad match-ups, trying to get some rest, but still working hard. When I miscarried, all I could do was curl up in bed and sob. I was devastated. No Christmas card to announce, no Big Sis t-shirts, no more names to discuss, just pure loneliness. It felt like I had just lost a close family member. Only another woman who has gone through this understands the loss you feel. It was so early, I was only 7 weeks, but 7 weeks of pure joy is what it was. The only comfort I had was knowing that my baby was in heaven and waiting for me to one day meet him or her.  We decided to name our baby because it gave that baby meaning, meaning that mommy and daddy loved that baby and miss him/her and I desperately want to carry that baby right now. I write all of this to tell you that you are not alone.

My dear friend gave me a book to read, and I hesitated reading it. I didn’t want to cry anymore than I already had, even to this day seeing a pregnant mom can bring me to tears. Yes I’m happy for them, but my own hurt overtakes me. Just this last weekend I finally got up enough nerve to read this book. I have to say it changed my whole perspective. It gave me hope that we can come together and carry each other through dark times. No matter when you lose your baby, either early during the first trimester or when they are full term, it hurts!

Well, let me shed some light into your dark path. This book is way more than I could have ever asked for. It gave me reassurance, hope, a stronger faith, and most importantly it gave me clarity. The story that Angie tells is difficult to hear, but her example that she sets is just what I needed. Her faith in God is my desire. I believe in God, I worship Him, and I give thanks to Him in the hard times and in the good times. I do! I believe in a powerful Creator and I am truly blessed to sit at His feet and worship Him. My Jesus is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. No matter what circumstance I face, I know that He is there, carrying me through and He will never leave me nor forsake me. That’s a promise that He makes. So please, if you are struggling or know a friend that is, please buy them this book. It will change you, it will empower you, and it will strengthen you. The book is called:

I Will Carry You by Angie Smith

Her husband is a lead singer in the group Selah. I absolutely love their albums. When Angie and her husband walked through their life storm they wrote a song that has touched thousands of women, and it touched me on a personal level. It will touch you too. I have it uploaded below, please listen to it.

To end I just want to say thank you for letting me open up to you. I never thought I would be able to, but reading this book has truly changed my perspective. Yes life is so short, but I believe in an Everlasting God, and because of His Son Jesus I have faith and a personal relationship with the One that gave His life for me. Let me leave with these words. “Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.” 2 Corinthians 1:3-4

Please email me if you have any questions or want to just talk. saveathomemommy@yahoo.com

As you probably know by now, I work closely with CSN.com to bring you guys giveaways and to review products for them.  When they approached me this time to review a product, I had to think for a bit as to what to check out.  I looked around their MASSIVE amount of products available and saw the Fire Pits!  My girls have been wanting one of these so that they can make smores outside:) 

I started searching through the ones available and LOVE the sliding price feature.  You can slide the arrows to quickly eliminate products out of your budget, and there are tons of others ways to sort through the products based on the specifics of what you are looking for.  I sorted them down to my price range and then looked for those with free shipping of course.  I finally landed on the one HERE.  I loved the price, the free shipping and that it wasn’t just a standard bowl with cover. 

It got here super fast and I was able to put it together on my own with just a little help from Marley.  I can not wait for this rain to stop so that we can get out there and make some smores and maybe even some hot dogs!

If you are looking to purchase just about anything, make sure to check out CSN.com first to see what deals you might be able to get from them!